About a year ago, Josh and I were having lots of conversations about my future endeavors (once we moved out of Stillwater). I wasn’t sure if I wanted to keep running a daycare, find a job, or really try to get our small woodworking business off the ground.
I prayed about it a lot because I was having a hard time deciding. I didn’t have a strong urge to do much of anything and felt lost and confused. But, for some reason, the only answer I was finding in prayer was a sense that I was going to get pregnant again. I tried really hard to just ignore it because Josh and I were done having kids and very happy about that decision.
I prayed about it a lot
During the years of not being pregnant and as Harvey got older, I was able to focus on myself and get out more. Josh going to OSU created opportunities to meet new people, make great friends, and try new things. I was able to help out families in Stillwater by watching their kiddos so they can take classes and graduate from OSU. I don’t think I could have done all that with another little one.
As usual, life started to get crazy for us while we struggled to cope with so many unknowns in our near future…waiting to find out if Josh would get a job in Wichita or if we were moving to Edmond, OK, where the kids would go to school, and of course, what I’d be doing with my life.
I thought this was going to be the perfect time for me to try something new and different, but God laughed at my plan!
A few months later, we found out I was pregnant. It took a while to get used to the idea…a long while. It’s been so long since I’ve been pregnant. I was afraid. Being pregnant is not something I’m good at haha. But, of course, we made it through!
I was afraid.
When you have babies every two years, then stop for half a decade. it’s definitely different. It really feels like I’m doing this for the first time all over again. Haha!
Now that he is here, it is overwhelmingly apparent that God knew exactly what I needed in my life. This just makes sense and feels right. I look at this precious boy and am instantly in awe. It’s such a gift to be able to love another little one. When it’s been many years, it’s easy to forget quite what this feels like.
God surprises you in many ways.
God surprises you in many ways. You can ask for answers and it’s not always going to be what you want to hear, but he knows what we need. Baby Lincoln, I love you to pieces and I’m so glad you were the answer to my prayers!